Though this is a common and some would say constant theme of mine in this blog I have to admit that in the spring time my personal woes in regard to my (lack of) a real-life social network (as in a few close friends instead of "friends" on that other social network) really starts to get to me. I lament the fact that when the snow melts and the temperatures moderate and the days get longer I can think of a million and one ways in which I would like to get out and enjoy it but alas I haven't anyone with which to share these escapades. So, at a time when I have the money at my disposal and yes even the time I haven't the desire to go it alone. The more time that passes the less fun it becomes to keep ones own company all the live loong day. It is not that I haven't met people or that I don't know people who I suppose if circumstances were different would be good friends or even dear friends but for some reason or another these "relationships" never seem to advance to that level. I get breadcrumbs here and there but never are my expressions of friendship reciprocated. I literally don't know how to convert acquaintances into Real friends. I can honestly say that I had somewhat more success as a teenager though at the time I thought that I was of course tragically unpopular and definitely not cool enough for most people.
The real problem as I see it is the fact that I seem to lack that certain Je ne sais quoi which peaks their interest. I don't have a lot of the same interests in music or TV shows or movies et cetera (How do you like that; French and Latin in the same paragraph?) and therefore perhaps people cannot relate to me or I to them? I would accept this explanation if it didn't have one fatal flaw... and that is that often people "reject" me long before they've even taken the time to get to know me to discover a lack of common interests. So where's the love people?? Why the cold-shoulder? Why do I repel you so? Will I ever know the answers to these questions or will I continue to wander through life clueless and meeting person after person a conversation here and maybe a phone call there only to find that this person has suddenly fallen off the face of the earth? Will Santa Claus ever learn of this island of misfit toys where I've been banished and I will eventually know the feeling of true friendships? God I really hope so and soon!
Funny - I'm working on a similar blog post, and recently read one on a "greenie" website. Hard to talk about all the stuff you "do" when everybody else wants to talk about hot wings, "Sex and the City" and who said what about Justin Bieber. And did you see that new commercial.
ReplyDeleteKeep soldiering on! I believe that if you're out there doing the thing you like to do, eventually you'll meet people in the exact situation. That's my theory anyway.